Its a wish come true, and THANKS TO ALL !!!

Ok, before the clock strucks 12, and the calendar date becomes June 1 2009, i want to thanks those who wished me, be it advanced, online (msn/ facebook), thru msging, and whatever it is. Thanks. Ok, list out. Not in sequence, from Beatty to AVT to CATS! Hahaha.

Warren, Eileen, Huishan, Kathleen, Clarissa, Xingcun, Yuheng, Xiangyi, Priscilla, Huisi, Jonathan Huang, Joanne, James, Gladys, Kaiwen, Xianglin, Kasthuri, Huiyi, Peiyen, Clarence, Siwei, Charlene, Yenchoo, Daniel, Liwen, Mummy, Monica, Benson, Weihua, Xinhui, Jessie, Jonathan, Adeline, Krithee, Jiashan, Asthina, Benjamin, Viona, Xiuzhen. If i miss out any, im sorry! Hahah.

Most imptly, i want to thanks ITCHYASSES for the celebration! Thanks, love you ppl, many many! MICHELLE (BITCH), CHRYSAN (WITCH), JOANNA (SWITCH), SHURUI (STITCH) !!!

And den, thanks to that someone who made my wish come true! Thanks! CHAN MENG FAI!!! Ur msg alone is enuf for me to enjoy my day alrd! Thanks!

Again, Happy Birthday to MYSELF and WHOEVER is born on this day! I am and You are the biggest today! Yeah. And im looking very forward to the june celebration!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF AND WHOEVER THAT IS BORN ON THIS DAY !!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Aha, in another abt half an hour or less, it will be 31st of May alrd! Yes, happy to the max loh! I love this day lah! Hahah.

And today was i tiring day! We walked up the pathway or in fact the forest walk all the way up to Henderson Waves, I thot there will be water loh, misleading! Haha. But the scenery is nice lah, not scenery actually, but the i dont know how to say is nice! Haha. Before that, we met at Bishan, Bought the cakes and proceed for the celebration! Yeah, while walking, we took quite a few pictures(its with that Witch!), its nice lah! Hahaha. Den when we arrive at the Henderson Waves, we took some pictures den that Bitch! took the cake out! Hahaha. It melted loh, like what the hell can! Hahha. But its nice! We bought it from Sweet Secret! Ok, advertising! Hahah. After that, we walk all the way down back to Vivocity, and the route was like oh my god, seriously! Hahah. I not yet have to chance to say ByeBye to my pumps, it spoilt sia! Luckily that Witch! brought her shoes with her, if not ah, i have to walk bare footed alrd! Hahah. Thanks Witch! had pastamania for i dont know is called Tea Time or Dinner, but very full after that! Den we went to Vivocity, played some arcade game which i dont know what izzit called, but its fun! Challenged that Witch, and the score is like 1-7 lah, very obvious im the 1, she is the 7! Hahah. Den bus-ed back to central, slept on the bus! And that guy sitting next to me, irritating! No comments loh, like seriously! Den took 142 with H2O, alighted at his hse nearby, sat there, chit chat abit(for like i think 45 mins?) den walk pass his hse, his dogs damn cute lah!!! Hahah. And i dont know where he went, nvr see his car! Haix. No rights to know where he is at and all. Den bus-ed back to central, bought bubble tea den back home! And here im blogging! Yeah, long post, i know! Some might not read finish! Haha. Ok, enuf.

PICTURES!!! (PS: Lazy to move ah, so same side! Hahaha.)







Counting down - 4 more mins according to my Macbook's timing! Hahah. Yeah! I assume u wont wish me! Assumption smashing! Its a thinking tool! Hahah.

50-50

Yes!!! Im so happy now!!! One more day to 31st May 2009. Hahahha. And will be going out later for Ahma's celebration! So sad loh, my birthday have to study! Argh! Why not like Sec Sch sia, haix. If not i jiu can go pester Chan Meng Fai alrd. Nvm!!! Hahah. Stop the day-dreaming alrd.

But the chance of u wishing me is just 50-50, that explains the title.

And HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TEO SHU RUI aka AHMA !!! You're one day older den me!!! Hahaha.

Ahhh, i think my maths might pass, but my compro, haix! Hopeless man. MCQ got 45/75, den Qn 1 got 95/100, Q2 got only 39/100. Oh my god loh, haix! Nvm! Hahahha. Dont care, weightage 10 percent only. Later must go do the proposal and submit online, sian ah. The proposal only is 15percent weightage liao loh! Like crazy can! Haix. Nvm!

Shortest post ever! Haha.

Counting down - 2 more days!!! Wish me, will you?! Haix. U said u 31 may not be free, but not confirm u not free what, haix. But since u alrd say like that liao, can mean is not free le, know ur pattern liao loh. 

There's a Maths quiz and Compro test tmr!!! Haix, can die man. I not yet even revise loh, haix. Need to revise alrd, after i blogging. Hahaha. Common test also coming, haix. Not yet even revise loh. Haix. Nvm, im very happy! Becos she replied me!!! Hahahah.

Ok, i type out the msges! Hahah.

I sent (2009/05/28 10:09am) : Hey, mr chan, its 端午节 today. Just want to send regards la. Nth alrd. Bye. Take care.

He replied (2009/05/28 07:03 pm) : Thanks :-) you enjoy the zong zi ya:)

I replied (2009/05/28 07:04 pm) : Haha. Just ate 2 but small one. U enjoy also. U got receive michelle's email?

He replied (2009/05/28 07:06 pm) : Ya. No time to reply. 31 may not be free:-(

I replied (2009/05/28 07:08 pm) : Ok loh. Not free. Nvm. Haha. They also not free to celebrate for me, common test coming. Haix. Will u wish me? Ok, i thick skin ah. 

Den he nvr reply alrd. Haix, i know i shldn't ask him that qn, but haix. Alrd ask le, cant take back what i've asked mah! Haha. Dont care man. Not free but put that face is mean what sia? Haix, always like that one loh. Haix. Im always haix-ing. Nvm, used to it can alrd. 

Counting down - 3 more days, its just 3 days away into the 18 yr old world! Haix. U will wish me anot, after i ask you that qn? Haix. Sth that is impossible. A wish that will not come true! 

Yeah, tmr start lesson at 11am, becos EG1 teacher is sick, dont know becos of what, AK said becos of daifi (i dont know how to spell), he spray the deoderant of whatever, den sick! Hahah, but that 11am den start is for tmr only, sian loh. Haix. Nvm, i must learn to be 知足！

Tmr is 端午节, finally is a festive for me to text him! Hahaha. But, i dont know the msg content is what loh, haix. Tmr den see how loh. I confirm will text him de, no matter what! I want to see him sia! Nvm! 知足！

Ok, counting down - 4 more days into the 18 yrs old world!!! Haix, i want to ask again, will you wish me?! Haix. Once in a lifetime!!! Wish me lah. I miss you! I want to see you! Ok, stop. I believe the june celebration will be a memorable one, althou its not on the day, but im very happy alrd. Haha. I understand that u ppl are busy, im very forgiving one! Hahaha. No worries!

Haix, common test coming, have to start revising alrd lah. Sian, nvm. For the sake of my GPA this semester! Must jiayou ah! All the best to all. 

S/No.	Module	Description	Class Section	Date	Day	Time	Venue	Seat No.
1	006897	ELECTRICAL TECHNOLOGY	TV11	08 JUN 2009	MONDAY	11:00 AM - 12:30 PM	CC1	298
2	005382	ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 1	TV1	09 JUN 2009	TUESDAY	11:00 AM - 12:30 PM	53-08-01	244
3	006898	ENGINEERING MECHANICS	TV11	11 JUN 2009	THURSDAY	11:00 AM - 12:30 PM	CC1	299

(PS: No more emo post u see. Hahha.)

One wish - will it come true? A wish that is impossible, sth that is impossible, and im still waiting for it! I dont want to accept reality!!!

Sports and wellness was real damn tired today, in fact every tuesday loh! Haha. But fun loh, when it comes to badminton lah. Nvm. And Cats was like, erm, i dont know how to say, but there's one cute guy!!! Hahaha, ok temporary!!!! I want to type in chinese. Enjoy ah! Haha.

每天会到家都已经这么累了，还必须得做这些家务事。

我真得不知道我家这些人是怎样的。

在家中无所事事，却什么也不做！Haix!

这半年来，每天都是我在做这些家务，你们在干什么？

做了那么多，得到的只是你们的bitch, shut up lah, stop nagging at me can, 

还有最最受不了的是，我爸说我的性格跟我妈一样，说完就一直念。Haix.

性格像我妈，没什么不好啊。我喜欢啊！

我只能说，事事难料！

很多事，不是在你的掌握中！

没办法，你不可能改变事实，不是吗？

Poly life, relaxing?! No way man! One chpt not fully understand, another new chpt is being taught. When i fully understand the previous chpt, i dont understand what the teacher is teaching! Haix. Siao liao loh, and super sian, have to study on my own! Sian ah!!! 

Counting down - 5 more days !!! Yeah, hahah. Wish me, will you?! Haix. 3 and a half yrs! I dont know when exactly i started liking you. Nvm! Haha. But its definitely more den 3 yrs. Ok, stop! I miss you like hell lah, i want to see you on 31st May 2009, in fact, everyday! 

Ok, im tired alrd. So ya, point form. Very long nvr use point form liao! Hahaha. And doubt i will be emo today?! 

• Met V11 mates outside Cheers and process for lesson at Blk 37 which is like real far! Haha.
• Had Engmec prac and we did quite fast, had a break of 3 hours, slacked at Makan Place while waiting for time to pass
• Den after break, was Eltech, i spotted the lecturer's error, hahahha
• Had MDA after that, and the presentation like shit loh, haix
• after that, met Laobu and Daniel for dinner at Tpy
• waited for Ben, Xiangyi and Ruiliang
• eat alrd, snapshot for a while, den bus-ed home
• reached home, do all the things im supposed to do, 
• bathed and im here, blogging

Shall end here. Tired liao lah! Hahha. 

Counting down - 6 more days!!! Woohoo, less den a week, yeah!!! Will u wish me?! Will it be a wish come true?! Will my waiting pay off? Haix. 3 and 1/2 yrs! Sian ah!!! Hate to let go! I miss you! Im always missing you loh.

Auction today was great, the sales was great, everything is great lah, in fact! Hahah. And haix, im missing someone alrd, althou i just met him yday! Haix, its like just few hours din see him only loh! Think i can go and die le lah! Haix.

So many ppl told me that im stubborn. Haix. 明明知道喜欢你，根本不会有结果，但我却不死心。Haix! 我能怎么办呢？要放下这3年来对你的单恋，对我来说，这不是一件容易的事。我怕，我真的害怕！不害怕什么，害怕的是，我得到一个我不想得到的回答！我不知道该怎么办啦！Ok, stop! Have been emo-ing for very long alrd, i know i shld stop. But haix, how to sia? Im like missing him everyday loh, seriously! I dont want to be emo, but i cannot loh. Got thing to do, nth to do only will think of him, thinking if he is ***, thinking abt the qns i want to ask him, thinking abt all the past(althou nth happened, but there are happy times), thinking of him now and den! Haix. When will i ever stop thinking of him sia?! When? Haix. 

Counting down - 7 more days, which is like exactly one week to my 18th birthday! Happy loh, becos by 31st may, the age gap between us will be like 19yrs instead of 20 yrs! Hahah, becos im still 17 now, and he is like 37! Haix. Nvm, i like can alrd. Will u rmb my birthday?! I want you to wish me leh, i dont want to have a shattered wish! I want it to be a real happy birthday!

Ok, the Beatty Alumni Bowling Competition was fun, enjoyed, but haix, my bowling skills damn pro loh! Keep going into the drain one. Hahahaha. 

After a very long period of time, i finally get to see him again!!! The long period of time is like 77 days, which is equivalent to 1848 hrs, which is like damn long loh, for me lah! And yes, i talked to him, but is like just a normal you ask me, i answer, i ask u, u answer. No more random here, random there alrd! Haix, really miss the days when we stand outside your staff room and talk abt everything, but now! Haix. I want to talk to you over the phone leh, but i know i cant. Ok, i have NO RIGHTS. Time will heal, i believe, but i dont know how long i will take loh.

Oh yes, and he called my name this morning, and im happy. Becos when u call someone, images of that person flows into the mind, processing it to rmb who that person is! Hahaha. He still rmb me! But haix, i got alot of things to ask him loh!

我发现，过了那么久，我见到你的时候，心还是会跳的很快。

我想问你很多很多的问题，我有很多的难道和为什么要问你。

但是，我觉得这些问题, 最终会是没有答案的。

我想不通， 真的想不通。

为什么你会是个这样的人？我只能说，人不可貌像！

我不想接受事实!!!

我想听你亲口告诉我。

亲口告诉我，你从来没被感动过。

亲口告诉我，你对我一点好感都没有。

我想告诉你，我还事喜欢你的！

我会等下去。等着那，不可能发生的一件事。

Counting down - 8 more days to my 18th birthday! Will you wish me?! Will it be a wish come true?! I dont know, i seriously dont! Haix! I still love you lah! Chan Meng Fai, you see that?!

One shocking news i got today, cannot say here. But im happy for the both of you! Congrats, to the girl, ur waiting pays off. For the guy, treat her good lah! Hahaha. And luckily, i no longer have the stupid mixed feelings for you alrd loh, if not i think i will just 崩溃 lah! Things are piling up!!! Haix. 

Yes! No more 6pm den end school on fridays for i dont know how long liao! Hahah. Yeah! And tmr im going for the Beatty Alumni Bowling thing, hope can see him ah. If not i will dont know how loh! How long nvr see him alrd? 77 days liao! Sian ah. I really want to see him lah, argh! Nvm!

傻到要住到你的新居附近

看著你凌晨还何以未关灯

若这刻你那手机微震

是否可感到我体温

和你远或近仍像终生情人

告别了也共你同渡余生

往事远记忆近我仍然未死心

难甘心遥望你被人热吻

                    方力申－在你遥远的附近

我有一边想得到你

也有一边祝福他厚待你

但我极明白我

实在没法抽身爱下个

Counting down - 9 more days to my birthday! I need not any celebrations, but i wish that ppl will rmb my birthday! I dont want a shattered wish! Haix. Wish me lah! Chan Meng Fai !!! I miss you! 

Wa lao, i hate the stupid feeling im having now at this time. I missed the chance to maybe talk to him loh! Fuck!!! Is like the 2nd time alrd lah, one at central, another one today! Like FUCK loh, seriously! I damn bushuang lah now! Shit!

我相信我和你是没有缘分的。

两次了，两次的机会我都没有见到你。

今天这次，如果巴士早点到，我就会遇见你。Haix!

我不甘心！

明明能够见到你，可能和你说几句话的，但我却流失了这个机会！

现在我更想哭！

超不甘心的!!!

为什么？Why? Why? WHY?

我只是想见你，这很难吗？

只能说，有缘无分!!!

冷风过境 吹乱心情 露出了伤心

我有多么伤多么痛 你不会相信
冷风过境 吹动记忆心无法痊愈
等待有多苦有多难 梦何时会醒

                               5566-冷风过境

Thanks Clarissa Song for the badminton racket !!!

And its been 76 days since i last saw you !!! Today is not counted! I dont care!!!

I miss you seriously!!! Suddenly rmb you're my LAOPA. Haix.

Counting down - 10 more days! I dont want a shattered wish!!! 15 more days to 张栋梁‘s new album!!! YEAH!

I LOVE YOU!!!Sometimes, imperfections are perfection!

I got nth to blog seriously! Hahah. But im starting to like compro alrd, its fun man! Except that the debugging part loh, haix. When got error de edit here edit there fun lah, when debug den cannot debug will die de loh! Haha. Ok, i know what to type in alrd. Yeah! 

Ohhh, and Np endorsed the bursary thing for me alrd, they say best is bring it the the CC by friday, so im going to Tpy South CC tmr loh, not going to Potong Pasir de liao! No time! Hahaha. Sad one leh, sian! Nvm! 

And plain cracker with margarine is nice!!! Ok, im being random only! Haha.

有没有人和我一样，想哭但是哭不出来啊？

Haix, 这几天我一直都很想你。

我知道我必须放下这段对我来说很刻苦铭心的单恋，

但是我还没有这个能力把它放掉。Haix! 

我很想你，你知道吗？

我还想说，我还喜欢你！

曾经指着“就是这么爱你”那首歌，但你什么都不说，只是微笑的带过而已。

微笑的带过，代表什么呢？Haix!

Counting down - 11 more days!!! Will my wish come true? Or will it shatter when the time turns 11:59:59 on 31st May?! Haix!!! I wish to stop haix-ing and be back the very old Samantha when i first stepped into Beatty! Haix!

I LOVE YOU! This is the first time im saying i love you! I want to tell you this when i see you again, but haix! I really hate to let everything go! I believe you will stay in my heart for a very long time, perhaps life long.

Ok, i just came back from central. Shld have reached home by 1plus de loh, haix. Actually i was home alrd, den i went to central to photocopy some documents needed for the bursary things. Thats why. I ended school at 12pm today, den i bus-ed to central to collect somethings from Ahma's father, den bus-ed back to Np again, to let the staff endorse, but den i dont have those supporting documents, so have to go back tmr. Sian ah!!! Den after that, bus-ed back home, den rest a while, on the com, den went to central again to photocopy some stuff! 

Today's S&W is like some i dont know how to say de tiring loh! Haha, super tired lah, run here run there to hit the shuttle. Tired!!! Nvm, badminton is still fun! Except that its very sian only, becos the racket i borrowed from yongkang needs to be restring. Think too long nvr use loh, haix. Who can be a good soul and lend me ur racket?! Haha.

我变更坚强了吗？

还是我的心真的死了呢？

我昨晚一滴眼泪都没有流，

只是眼眶里泛着泪而已。

真的很想哭，但是我哭不出来。Haix!

算了！不管我再怎么伤心难过都好，你都不会知道。

累了，真的累了。

身心和心理都累了。Haix.

于是无补！

Counting down - 12 days!!! Wish me, can you?!

I despise GAYS seriously !!! 

And i feel sorry for you and your parents!!!

School starts at 1 today, so i left hse at abt 1130 like that. Met Joanne at the lounge (somewhere in ourspace) den go to class together. Lesson like normal, den after that, met daniel they all to have dinner together and i know sth real shocking, but i alrd got 心理准备. Haix, nvm!!!

我累了，真的累了。

好想放声大哭，但是我不可以。

因为没有一个男人是值得你为他流泪的，值得的那一个，不会让你哭！

我不想哭，因为我觉得你是值得的。

可能很多人会说我这样很傻，但是我不觉得。

早就已经有心理准备了，那为什么我的心现在很痛很痛。

也许你真的不曾为我做过的那些事感到感动吧！

为什么？为什么现实中的你，和我想像的不一样。Haix.

所以我只能说，现实和虚幻往往不一样！

讨厌现实，因为现实事非常残酷的！

但不管怎样，我没有后悔喜欢你！

我想大声地告诉你，我还喜欢你，你听到没有？

我很希望你可以读到我在博客写的这些东西，真的很希望。

如果可以恨你 

全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非想放下你 

還是掛念你
誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離 

Counting down - 13 more days! Do u rmb my birthday?! Will you wish me? 

Its really impossible!!!

If u were to ask me if im still waiting for the impossible?! I will reply u saying, YES!!!

Oh yes, and if u see me being very quiet, dont irritate me, becos i just dont feel like talking. Haix. Sorry.

Haix, i want to use my OCBC bank a/c de money sia!!! Haix, but its a joint a/c with my dad, he have to sign to cancel the joint a/c loh. But my mum told me, there was once my sister ask him, but he refuse to sign and return the a/c to her. Haix. I want the money lah!!! Argh. Haix, nvm. I shall persuade him loh. 

I realised my hand become more and more rough alrd, must be due to the always washing of bowls. Haix, luckily im using the moisturiser Ruth bought for us, if not ah, i dont know will rough until like how ah, my hand. Haha. I need to collect the multi-meter from my Ahma hse, but i lazy to go up sia, when its like only a few blocks away nia. Haha, ok, lazy is the word.

Im very full now, ate porridge at abt 12 plus, den 2 plus like that go central buy concession and update my bankbook (POSB left only 10plus loh, need money!). Bus-ed to the market there and bought those necessities, walked home, forget to buy toilet paper, go down and buy, den eat again!!! Hahah, bought dessert for them, and i also got eat, so now, super full ah! Hahah. 

Ok, tues got S&W, can play badminton again. Yes!!! But, haix. The aftermath of S&W is pain here pain there de loh. Haix. Nvm!!! Wed got engmec quiz, i dont really understand the moments and couples lah!!! Argh!

Counting down - 14 more days to Samantha's 18th birthday!!! Will u rmb my birthday?! Haix. Any one got ant idea if he knows this blog? Hahah. 

Ohhh, and today is my brother's birthday! I nvr buy present for him loh, hahaha. Dont care, anyway, happy birthday Terence Tan!!!

Ok, long post! My post was nvr short before de loh! Hahah.

A day just like other days, have to do alot of things within that few hours, haix, When will they ever grow up and do those things on their own? I seriously wonder. Everything also i do for them. Alrd so old liao, still have to help her wash her clothes and all. Haix, she's like 23 alrd loh, this yr. Attitude and all still like fuck like that!!! Haix, speechless!!! For ur info, she my sister!!! But a sister like not sister like that. Think she treats me as her maid lah! Like fuck, seriously!!! Argh!!! Nvm, no comments! Haix, wonder if she'll read this blog! Haha. Nvm! Dont want to talk abt it alrd. Damn fed up, like always.

Hahaha. And im like watching boys over flower now. 3rd version of 流星花园. 1st was the original one, 2nd the japanese one, now the korean one. So many version for what sia? Haix. And the korean version de "Daomingsi" looks abit like the taiwan one lah. Hahah. But i think the very first version is nicer, becos its original!! Oh yes, thanks Yongkang for the badminton racket!!! 

I removed the tagboard alrd, dont like it there ah. Haha. So got anything, leave a comment loh!

Counting down - 15 more days to Samantha's birthday!!! Will he wish me? Haix! 

Ok, i used the windows hard disk for like i dont know how long alrd! Hahaha, first time use so long, usually is use for a while jiu change back to mac de hard disk. Haha, using windows one for so long is becos have to do project for the CATS, thats why. Need Microsoft powerpoint ah! Haix, just send the file over to Weihua, waiting for him to compile. And tuesday=presentation loh! Sian to the max. And here im going to type out the notes i've scribbled on the worksheet during the field trip! Hahaha. So sian. Haix, i want to slp alrd lah. Argh!!!

Bus concession expires on the 19th, so i have to go and buy again! Haix, need money like seriously!!! Hahaha. And when Ruth send the email, i was like so happy can! Haha, becos firstly got money earn, secondlu, i dont know why im happy! Hahah. Ok, stop!!!

I shall go and continue my typing. Haix, sian to the max u know?! Haix. Feel like stopping school lah! Argh, cant cope lah, truckloads of projects coming up, exams, common tests, datelines especially!!! Haix, i have yet to explore the Final Cut Express can! Haix. Week 6 must submit the project alrd, but haix. How to do sia?! I dont know.

Counting down - 16 more days to Samantha's birthday!!! A wish that will not come true! Haix, i miss u so much!!!

我发现，我们不再像以往一般的要好了。

是因为开学了，大家都各忙各的，忙到连回个简讯的时间都没有吗？

几个月前，我跟你什么都可以聊，我猜得到你到底再想什么，但现在呢？

Haix, 我真的不知道为什么，

我觉的我们已经疏远了吧。

I know i wrote this before, but a blog, an online diary is a place where all unhappiness, happiness and whatever stuff to be shown. Haix. 

Ok, today's class theme was like WEAR UR PREVIOUS SCHOOL UNIFORM!!! Hahaha, so i wore my PE tee shirt to school! Haha, and its like so weird loh. But nvm! Hahaha. Wearing Beatty related shirts let me think of Be Yourself Day last yr. And i just feel like posting this 2 photos(but it was deleted becos u know what!!!). Hahaha, I miss him and school like seriously loh! Miss him also no use, cant text him so often, cant get to see him. Haix.

THERE WAS 2 PICTURES HERE, BUT I'VE DELETED IT!!!

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Even my friends say u dont look like 37!!! Hahaha.
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Counting down - 17 more days to Samantha's big day!!! Will you wish me?! Waiting for the impossible, thats why this link is impossible-awaiting.


PS: I know if i post this picture, confirm will got ppl scold one, so im sorry!!! Hahaha.


Oh ya, enthu-ers, class blog has been updated and the gathering's invitation have been sent to u thru facebook. Those with facebook a/c, be ready to receive my text msg!


Aha, and i ate a footlong cold cut trio just now, super full now!!! Hahah.

A day which was like not bad! Hahah, had maths, eltech, compro and engmec today, not bad lah, i finally completed the compro thing. Haha, all thanks to Huishan! Yeah, and during compro lesso, i cant connect to NPNet lah, i dont know why loh. Jeremy said his one also like that, but sove alrd, the problem, he helped me, but still cant connect, so im going to the IT helpdesk tmr! Hahaha. 

Oh ya, and i ended school like 6, i took 74 to amk and then took 73 back home. And its like all wrong man! The journey is far lah, hate it man. So late den reach home loh, haix. Tired! 

Tmr is EE division de Graduation Day i suppose, then teachers of EE all going for the ceremony, so i have like 3 hrs of break in between lesson, haix, dont know can do what man! Haha.

Ohhh, and sorry for shouting at u just now, really got irritated and frustrated by doing all those things. Sorry, Mummy i din mean to shout at u one!!!

Im sorry for me bugging you, 

Im sorry for being such a fool,

god knows i've tried but i cant let go!!!                

                                       5566-boyfriend

Counting down - 18 more days to Samantha's birthday!!! Will he wish me?!

Wa lao, i want to join this sia!!! Hahaha. 

"Everyone can sing, just that is ur voice pleasant anot."

                                                        -Ang-chia leh hua 

《我要唱下去》 试唱会 

Don’t Forget The Lyrics 华语版即将举行试唱会

50万奖金等你来挑战！

参加资格：凡年龄介于16至60岁的新加坡公民或永久居民

请携带身分证及个人照片一张

日期: 5月23和24日

时间 ：上午11:00 至 下午6:00

地点 ：K Box K Union 

Orchard Cineleisure Level 8

机会不等人，马上去背歌词吧！ 

Today's Sports and Wellness was not bad! Haha, quite fun, in fact shld be very fun, becos when it comes to Badminton, its always fun man! Haha. I have yet to have a chance to play badminton with u! Haix. Instructor scare me today sia, thot we had to do the 100 push ups for punishment, but he said its ok, just go for our next lesson. Haha, he's not so strict anymore loh, so lesson ain't so tense alrd! Haha.

After S&W was CATS, but there is a field trip, so lesson starts at 1245, as in we'll meet our lecturer at the Little Red Dot museum at 1245. Saw alot of very nice designs, is real nice loh! Haha. Den my phone model also got display! After Red Dot, we walk over to the URA museum, boring ah that one! Haha, but entrance fee is free, means u want to go in like that also can de loh. And ya, i forgot where to take bus back to central, so i walked like from Tanjong Pagar to Chinatown to take 143 back to central. Haha. Luckily i walked thru before with my mum, if not ah, i dont know how to go back liao loh! Hahaha. 

Reached central, den i went to check on my a/c balance, but the money isn't in it, so i went to the DBS to ask and they told me becos i nvr write anything behind the cheque, they referred it back to the company. So, haix, now broke ah. I still owe ppl birthday present know? So next time ppl, when u have cheques to deposit, rmb to write ur a/c number, contact number behind the cheque, if not it will be real troublesome sia! Haha. Need money sia now! Haix.

Counting down - 19 more days to Samantha's birthday!!! Will he wish me?! Miss him so much!!! Wonder if he's still using the things i gave him! Maybe someday can list out ah? Haha.

You are like at home for the whole day, and u need the shorts, but u dont want to wash it urself. So be it loh, im not oblige to wash it for u ok?! See that, 我没有义务要帮你洗衣服.

I hate ppl who are ungrateful!!! They wont even thank you for what u've did and all. Haix, i wonder where do they learn all these things from! Haix, feel sad for them, seriously!!! Pls dont take me for granted ok?! For your info, IM NOT UR MAID!!! 

After school, met up with James, Daniel, Ahma and Laobu! Had dinner together, and there's pictures! Haha, with my macbook! And that James keep on saying loh, her's is macbook leh, haha. 

So tired, but not as tired as Chrysan, she really damn stress lah, U BETTER TAKE CARE OF URSELF! IF ITS NOT VERY URGENT, CAN POSTPONE JIU POSTPONE!!! I DONT WANT U TO STRESS OUT HOR! 不要累坏自己的身体，如果不是很赶的话，能拖就拖吧！

一个人的心，一旦被封闭住，就无法再因为任何一个人打开。

除非她找到一个能够再度打开她的心的人。

Counting down - 20 more days to Samantha's birthday!!! Will the wish come true?!

Ok, i had enuf slp today!!! Hahah. Wake up not long jiu go my Popo hse, becos today is Mother's day cum my Popo birthday!!! Haha. Happy mother's day to all mother and Happy birthday to my Popo!!! 

And i seriously need to rant loh. I realised there are just too many useless ppl at home lah, what the f*ck loh!!! List out!!!

1. Eat alrd, dont know how to wash de.
2. I in school for whole day alrd, reach home, the hse is in a mess de loh! Reach home liao, still have to clear.
3. I wash alrd, another person take and use again!
4. Have to wash again！

I damn fed up lah!!! Everyday reach home is do the same thing de loh! Like FUCK can! Nabeh!!! Damn fed up!!! Argh! And it suck big time can!!! Argh!

Counting down - 21 more days to Samantha's birthday!!! Will the wish come true?!

Argh!!! Im stuck with the stupid COMPRO lah! Haix, why of all subjects, we have to learn computer programming?! Damn idiotic man, and really frustrated when i cant start the debugging loh! Haix, super pekchek ah. And im glad that Huishan will help us if cant start the debug!!! She's really hardworking man! Haha, i can nvr be like her lah! Haha. Top 10 percent of the cohort can nvr be me alrd! Haix. Hahaha.

Ok, i lazy to type in all, so now point form ah! Haha.

• Met H2O at breadtalk, den day begins! Haha.
• not long, ahma come den we started doing hw and all.
• played with bus and its real nice lah! Haha. dont move but sit on the bus for like dont know how long! Haha.
• I took like 238, 88, 58, 88, 238 and den back home! Haha, all the eights!
• Ok, thats my day. And now come blog is becos i really cant start to debug lah! Hahah, going to explore again liao.

Counting down - 22 more days to a big day to Samantha Tan birthday!!! A wish that will not come true~~~

Hello, here again! Hahaha. So sad, today 6 then end school. Reached home abt 650pm like that. Haix, then on bus met Ben, so long nvr see enther-ers alrd. Haha, he ask me to organise class gathering again. Told him it will be ard June! Haha. So, enthu-ers, wait ah! Wait for June, and the next class gathering will be soon. 

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我有很多的如果想问！

如果我没有在Beatty念中学，我会认识那么多要好的朋友吗？

如果我没有在Beatty念中学，我会认识你吗？

如果我不认识你，我会那么喜欢你吗？

如果我没有告诉你我喜欢你的话，我们的关系会怎样呢？

如果你还没结婚，你会喜欢我吗？

我知道那么多的如果是没有用的，但我还是想知道答案。Haix! 

可能你曾经被我感动过，但因为某种原因，你没说。

你可能喜欢我，但没有说出来。(我在异想天开！)

什么时候才能找到一个懂得欣赏我的人呢？我不知道！

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Where LOVE matters, age is never an obstacle. NEVER!!! It is regardless of age, religious, beliefs and nationality!

Haix, i miss the days standing outside the Sunflower Loft (izzit still called Sunflower Loft?) and chit chat with you, and drinking bubble tea! Haha. Miss you so much! Haix. And i told Joanne alot today, we shared our problems! Haha, see that Joanne? (Ur name! Haha.) She a super hyper person, she loves laughing too lah, i love laughing too! Whoever knows me well will know! Hahah. Althou after liking you, i become more and more emo!

Counting down - 23 more days to Samantha Tan's big day!!!

And a big THANK YOU to my cousin, Ken, for the multi-meter which like saves me from 70 dollars!!! Thanks!

我没见你，已经有62天了。Haix!  好想见你喔, 今天不知怎么的，我发了简讯给他。原本以为他不会回复的，没想到他回了我的简讯。那么短短的一则简讯，让我开心了一天。谢谢你！He's still the same! Haha, his msg makes my day lah! Hahahaha. So happy!

Ok, a day just like the other days, leave hse, board bus, reach school, lectures, break, tutorials, leave school, board bus, change bus, reach home. Cleared the tables, wiped and all, den now online. Sian ah, everyday's routine is the same loh, haix. When will all this stop sia? I think 3 yrs later bah! Haix. Ok, boring.

距离陈绘月的生日，还剩24天!!! Will you wish me? Again, a wish that will never come true!

Alright, im at the compro lesson now, and i did 2 of the given assignment then i blog de! Hahaha, so im slacking now! Haha. Today was stuck on the bus for like i dont know how long die to the stupid jam! Haix, luckily i wasn't late for lesson! Haha. Lecturer was even later then me! Haix, so sian lah, now! Have to submit those compro things online by 15th May. Sian to the max lah, haix! Keep haix-ing. Now the haix-est is here ah, they think what sia, poly students ain't so rich lah! What the F*ck! Haix, as if i very rich like that! Argh, complained in yday's post alrd i think. Haix.

Auction was cancelled due to the Swine Influenza, no auction means no job, no job seriously means no money lah!!! Haix. Where the hell can i buy the things sia! Haix. Again. When will the Swine Flu stop? When will he ever msg me? When the hell am i going to forget him? Haix, haix again!

I feel so like msging him now, but i jolly well know that he wont reply, so i shldn't msg him! Haix. Its been 2 mths since i last saw him alrd, miss him like what sia! Haix.

Counting down, 25 more days to a big day for Samantha Tan!!! Will he wish me?! A wish that will nvr come true!

I have been blogging since this blog was created! But now, i dont seem to have anything to be updated in this blog, just haix! Ok lah, actually is have, but all like same one loh. Haha. First things first, met YC and Switch den we proceed to school. Was there like abt half an hour earlier before the S&W started! Sports and Wellness started, did some throwing and catching, then learn how to serve and all. Haix, if only the S&W instructor is him ah, wahh, i think i dont want it to end so soon loh! Haix, again!!! After S&W, went off to Blk 50 for CATS lesson. Next week going Little Red Dot museum and the URA museum. Dont know what izzit all abt! After CATS, meet Switch and YC at the bus stop, then bus-ed home. Bought lunch and all. Did some washing and clearing, and started on my ENGMEC tutorials, which i dont really understand, but now, after doing, i somehow understand liao!!! Hahah, abit only. Wait the complicated one come ah, i die liao loh! Hahahaha. 

Ok, tmr school starts at 9, but haix. Everyday wake up first thing is ask myself, if i shld wake up and go to school!!! I want a long break lah!!! Can the MOE/Govt quarantine us for a few days, and dont let us go to school?! Haix! I really wish that to happen, haha. I know its very bad of me, but i watched the News yday, the reporter reported that after autumn, the swine flu disease will become stronger loh! Haix, im tired liao lah! Haix. Sick and tired of everything, seriously! Haix. 

I still got alot of things undone sia, Compro. I think only Compro nia! Haha, best ah! Haix, all the compro language i dont understand de! So sucky loh, this module. I wants to go into media industry de sia, why must learn all this stuffs?! Haix. Somemore must buy so many stuffs, hello, poly students are not all rich ok?! Haix. Bus concession so ex, still must things that are so costly! Haix. Like what Witch said, poly life ain't so relaxing loh! Stress ah!!! Haix. I still prefer Secondary School, where i have my motivation to motivate me to school everyday! Haix. Him again! Haix. I want to go NIE after Poly!!! Hahahah.

Counting down - 26 more days!!! A big day for Samantha Tan!!!

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I dont know what am I supposed to do now! Seriously. Haix. Perhaps a few people know abt it only, i wants to talk to my "brother", but he nvr seems to be online at the time when im online. So, i shall then keep it to myself. Haix.

I feel so like asking him a Qn, is he a GAY?! 

我不是因为得不到你的爱，所以才这样讲你的。我会有这种想法，原因是种种的因素形成的问题。喜欢你的这3年里，一直都很想查出你到底结婚了没，问你的时候，你总是不肯回答我。你有时候会带戒指，但在Beatty的这5年里，我见你带戒指的次数少之又少。每次见到你，你总是自己一个人。在学校，你和男学生总能打成一片。很多老师都不敢问你结婚与否，是他们怕你敏感吗？我不知道，我真的不知道！我只知道，我爱你太深了。真正的爱过，当你要放弃的时候，那是很难的！很多人都在劝我说要向前走，但我发现我做不到，真的。可能我自己不够努力吧，我想应该是。到现在，我还是会时不时地想起你。我应该怎么做呢？有没有人可以告诉我啊？Haix. 我不想去理会，说是说，但我始终会想知道他的近况！Haix. If you are really a gay, i feel sorry for your parents, seriously! No offence! Feel sorry for you too, its really a waste if u are! I also feel sorry for myself, by falling for you. But love cant be controlled, you cant control LOVE and FEELINGS! No matter what, i still have in a CORNER of my heart, see that its only a corner!

 

I wanted to change the link of this blog, but its kinda troublesome, so i shall just leave it as it is! I've tried many ways to let you feel touched, but i think neither one touches you, i believe. If only i had an accident and let everything start from zero again! Haix. I feel like dying now, but im not so stupid to end my life like that, i know im contradicting myself, but i dont care! Haix. 

Still sick and i hope i will get well soon!!! To those who are sick, i hope u to get well soon too! Take care. 

2nd May

Ok, point form!!! Hahah.

• Met H2O and St!tch on bus and proceed to our that day journey!
• ate Rockery and its quite nice lah, seriously. Haha.
• after eating, walk walk look look see see and all
• then went Esplanade slack ard, talk abit
• decided on where to go, but in the end, change plan
• bus-ed to airport but my mum was like working alrd, so we went to the staff canteen and eat dinner
• my mum called, and we went off
• leaving the 2 and waited for my dad to drive my bro to the hospital (fever ah)
• waited and waited, we cant go in loh, what the hell
• after dont know how long, then they came out like finally
• left and back home now!
  

Oh my god!!! Im down with flu, sore throat and cough now lah, wa lao eh!!! 

Random post!

Will dreams ever come true?! I dont know!!! Haix.

我今天梦到你了，如果梦真的会实现的话，那我希望它真的会实现。

在梦里，我没有落泪。

在梦里，我靠得你会近。

在梦里，我问你的私人问题，你会回答我。

在梦里，我想放弃了。那在现实生活中呢？我还不知道。

没有必要再继续等下去了吧！Haix. 

我想放弃你，但我要怎样才能把你忘掉啊？

你能不能叫我死心呢？Haix.

So emo, nvm! Forget it! Haha.

1st May

Ok, first of all, Happy Labour Day to all first. So sad loh, labour day still have to work, haha. But, its ok! Auction was fun today, not really fun, but its alright actually. Hahah. Dont want to elaborate more on it, but i got things to say!!! Hahaha. Thanks RUTH for the Victoria's Secret shampoo, moisturizer and the nail polish, feel so bad when i took the things, becos we are working for her, she's paying us and yet, she buy things for us! Much thanks, seriously! Now then i know Victoria's Secret not only sell bra sia! Hahaha.

For your information, U are not someone to comment abt my family members and all other stuff of mine, pls dont act as if u know me super well and answer everything that ppl ask abt me! Dont act as if u everything also know can, haix!!! And pls dont take advantage of others, mind you! Nvm, 我大人不计你小人过！

Wa lao!!! Expo got Metro de sales lah, i want to go! But dont have direct bus go till EXPO leh! Why must it be at EXPO sia, at suntec better loh! Near. Hahahaha! 

I din msg u today! I thot i will, but in the end, i didn't! Haix!

为什么人们总会把爱藏在心里呢？我想告诉你，我还喜欢你啦，但我不能啊。告诉我一个能够让我死心的原因好吗？