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I dont know what am I supposed to do now! Seriously. Haix. Perhaps a few people know abt it only, i wants to talk to my "brother", but he nvr seems to be online at the time when im online. So, i shall then keep it to myself. Haix.

I feel so like asking him a Qn, is he a GAY?! 

我不是因为得不到你的爱，所以才这样讲你的。我会有这种想法，原因是种种的因素形成的问题。喜欢你的这3年里，一直都很想查出你到底结婚了没，问你的时候，你总是不肯回答我。你有时候会带戒指，但在Beatty的这5年里，我见你带戒指的次数少之又少。每次见到你，你总是自己一个人。在学校，你和男学生总能打成一片。很多老师都不敢问你结婚与否，是他们怕你敏感吗？我不知道，我真的不知道！我只知道，我爱你太深了。真正的爱过，当你要放弃的时候，那是很难的！很多人都在劝我说要向前走，但我发现我做不到，真的。可能我自己不够努力吧，我想应该是。到现在，我还是会时不时地想起你。我应该怎么做呢？有没有人可以告诉我啊？Haix. 我不想去理会，说是说，但我始终会想知道他的近况！Haix. If you are really a gay, i feel sorry for your parents, seriously! No offence! Feel sorry for you too, its really a waste if u are! I also feel sorry for myself, by falling for you. But love cant be controlled, you cant control LOVE and FEELINGS! No matter what, i still have in a CORNER of my heart, see that its only a corner!

 

I wanted to change the link of this blog, but its kinda troublesome, so i shall just leave it as it is! I've tried many ways to let you feel touched, but i think neither one touches you, i believe. If only i had an accident and let everything start from zero again! Haix. I feel like dying now, but im not so stupid to end my life like that, i know im contradicting myself, but i dont care! Haix. 

Still sick and i hope i will get well soon!!! To those who are sick, i hope u to get well soon too! Take care.