Monday, May 18, 2009

School starts at 1 today, so i left hse at abt 1130 like that. Met Joanne at the lounge (somewhere in ourspace) den go to class together. Lesson like normal, den after that, met daniel they all to have dinner together and i know sth real shocking, but i alrd got 心理准备. Haix, nvm!!!

我累了,真的累了。
好想放声大哭,但是我不可以。
因为没有一个男人是值得你为他流泪的,值得的那一个,不会让你哭!
我不想哭,因为我觉得你是值得的。
可能很多人会说我这样很傻,但是我不觉得。
早就已经有心理准备了,那为什么我的心现在很痛很痛。
也许你真的不曾为我做过的那些事感到感动吧!
为什么?为什么现实中的你,和我想像的不一样。Haix.
所以我只能说,现实和虚幻往往不一样!
讨厌现实,因为现实事非常残酷的!
但不管怎样,我没有后悔喜欢你
我想大声地告诉你,我还喜欢你,你听到没有
我很希望你可以读到我在博客写的这些东西,真的很希望。

如果可以恨你 
全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非想放下你 
還是掛念你
誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離 


Counting down - 13 more days! Do u rmb my birthday?! Will you wish me? 
Its really impossible!!!
If u were to ask me if im still waiting for the impossible?! I will reply u saying, YES!!!
Oh yes, and if u see me being very quiet, dont irritate me, becos i just dont feel like talking. Haix. Sorry.

2 comments:

  1. Tan, your Chinese Language is superb. Don't look down on yourself, everyone has their own talent and good points. Whenever i read what you type in Chinese, my heart breaks. I wonder why, both of us are going through the same thing.

    I hope time heals, really. Earlier when i was in Sec 1 & 2, there was another female teacher whom i see as a sister; but she is always cold towards me unless she needs help. It took me more than 2 years to forget about her. Now that she is trying to contact me, i did not reply her SMSes and MSN messages. I know i sound very mean, but the pain that i went through is much hurtful.

    I hope everything will be alright for both of us.

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  2. I hope it will be ok also, but i dont know how long i will take! At least she is trying to contact u now, but he isn't loh. Nvm lah, haix. Im used to it alrd loh!

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