If you chance upon.

Honestly, idk when did i even start having such feelings for you. 

And being so stupid to still continue acting like nothing's happening when you alrd sensed something.

That one steamboat wasnt really enough, cause i wanted more of such dinner, 

or even more chances to go out with you, just the 2 of us. 

Of course, i want more photos together. 

I was so happy when you replied "i wont say no",

when i asked that qn about me asking you out. 

Only to realise that such happiness wouldnt last... 

I thought maybe you wouldnt mind giving me that tiny bit of chance. 

So a double confirmation doesnt really mean anything. 

Hah! How stupid. 

Also when you sent your new haircut over, i didnt expect it. 

And i thought maybe somehow im of some importance to you! 

Pushed my luck too far for L, i wouldnt want to do it to you. 

As much as i still want to talk to you like how we used to, 

still wanting to share videos/photos, 

still wanna rant and complain about people i meet at work,

still wanna hear you rant and talk about other random stuff we encounter,

but i think im keeping a distance from you. 

Idk how long it'll take for this feelings i have towards you to fade off, 

and i know i wont get over you if i still continue texting you. 

So i think keeping a distance will be of help! 

Again, really thank you for being there when my grandma left. 

I know i have other friends around, but you being there was more than enough! 

And you handling this matter very maturely, unlike L. 

I know i've repeated this many times! 

You being not interested means you wont even want to try, cause i asked you that qn before. 

So you wont even kena any pms or attitude from me! 

I didnt even have the chance to ask if you wanna go on a date. 

Oh wells. You've made yourself clear, so im not gonna try anymore! 

Continue working hard and be safe at work! All the best for your upcoming exams! 

Thank you J! Sorry and goodbye! Take care! 

I know i'll miss talking to you, :( but i really think keeping a distance will be good for me! 

These are things i dont dare to tell you in person. :( 

因為我喜歡你，所以我沒法只和你做朋友。

J, i'll always feel better pouring things out. 

And im glad there was this once that we were closer than anyone else! 

Im so gonna miss seeing your name appearing on my phone...

致朋友, J.