Relapsed.

I know if i post this out here, alot of ppl will wanna scold me. But i really need a platform for me to rant/confess or sth like that lah. Haix.

Helped out as sound for BADE, i shall skip that part. Shall update more when i have the photos and all to continue posting for BADE.

I was really looking forward for the event, but one week before the event, i was feeling really damn uneasy. Idk if its becos if the kbox session or whatever. Haix. Last sat, i k-ed with Asthina. As usual, when i go sing with her, we'll definitely spam alot of duets. So, we spammed alot of AlexFong's song, and blah blah blah. Den when that particular song started playing, i was still alright, until that sentence appear "每個人心中都有一個...我的最愛". Memories just came flashing thru my mind. Cos it was during that period of time (when the song first release), i started listening to Cantopop. And i kinda introduced AlexFong's to him. And flashbacks, haix. The feeling was like really, JUST-KILL-ME, I-DONT-WANNA-THINK-OF-IT. Haix. After that, everything went on smoothly, for me!

Until the very start of BADE, Isaac was there, he asked where's your that teacher. Den i started looking for him. :/ Until the very moment that i saw him, i walked over and said hi, den of cos blah blah blah abit lah. And that Chris, walked over to ask him come over to our side. I was really damn paiseh, idk why. :/ [Joanne said their pattern abit the same! Hahah. But come to think of it, they do have similarities. No wonder ...] Ohh, and one thing, he said that he still have all those old photos at home, the one that i took with him during sec sch day. When he said that, i was really OMG~

Started becoming damn emo when the show is ending, idk why. Cos maybe i miss him again? I think. Hakim realised that i wasnt really me when we strike, which was like really true. Ok, shall skip.

Joanne drove us ard, wanted to go Marina Barrage, but got construction, and its damn noisy, so we went to the airport instead. Everything was fine, until i played 我的最愛 again. Wahh, that feelings really sucks! Htht-ed for a while, and i teared. :'( IM SO SCARED THE SAME THING WILL HAPPEN AGAIN, I DONT WANT~ :( Ok, it wont! Have to be positive!!

And i think im not in the right mind, i actually told Hakim that i used to like him!!! BIG confession, face to face, can die! Ok, wev.

Fuck.

Relapsed.

對你再好不會廝守

Alex Fong's song reminds me of you.

每個人心中都有一個...我的最愛~